EmOtIonLeSs..

i FoRgOt wHen WaS d LaSt tIme i LaughEd... i Mean at real jokes n spontaneously.
n sOmetImeS i fOrgoT to sMiLe....

OsO hAveN't crieD fOr sO LonG.. FunNy! im so Soo a CrY bAby....

yEt itS reAl.. faTin:EmOtiOnlEss + hEartleSs haha!



p/s: thiNgs are GettiNg hArd arOund heRe...buT i cAnt fEel it stIll..too baD;(

kamu.... jgn salah sangka ;)

BenCi ? sAmA sekali TidaK

MeNgaTa ? tiDaK!!

pEnTinG dIrI seNdiri? MunGkiN....

sElesA begiNi? yA... kiNi lebih tEnAnG

note: hAraP kaMu juga TiDak MembEnci, tidaK meNgaTa, leBih SleSa bGini dAn terPulAng samA ade utk PentingkAn diri aTau tidak .

• mAaFkan sAya (jika salah sy masih terkesan di hati kamu)

• eLakkAn pErtEmuaN (sUpaYa kiTe beRdua lebih Selesa Menjalani semestr terakhir)

• jGn MengAta (sUpaYa ati masing2 lebih teNang)

note: kepada KAmU...... bukan niat utk menyakiti ati sesiapa tetapi lebih kepada menjage ati sniri dan memperbaiki diri. JGNLAH SALAH SANGKA KERANA ATI INI TIDAK SEPERTI APE YG KAMU SANGKAKAN. jgn lah membenci kerana sy x benci kamu.. benci itu penyeksaan.. sunggh.... xpe anyway, sY tau kamu oRg baik ;).. jadi, sy doa kamu lebih tenang kini kerana sy sudah tEnAng! alhamdulillah ;)... SmOga bErjAya...

it was a good start for 2010

yesterdy (heard da fire crakers), 1 whole day in bed... ralit bace the time traveler's wife( thanX bi!) hee.. well, smua org went out celebrating.. hahaha.. org islam bukan da celebrate new year 2 weeks earlier ke? ahax..then this morning met da gurls kt mines.. n catch up all da stories n those things we left during our last meeting... terlintas kt mind ni, kn best kalo masing2 dah keje n nnti still have time nk hangout mcmni skali skala.. ahhahak.. daaa... degree pn xabes lg ni... well, thanX girls my strenght is back!;)...

-sO gReaTfUL to HavE tHeM. ThAnK u AllAH. WonT ask fOr MorE ;)-

p/s: wOndEr piA saMpE umAh pkUl bape td? hmmm...

• 2010's resolutions ( d' same old thing.. sgt boring!)

- work harder on fyp n exams ( i nak 4 flat plak sem ni!;) -

- menerima segala yg terjadi n bakal terjadi dengan lebih redha ;) -

- > savings -

- > workouts -

- pray hard -

• gOoD byE pAjerO [ with tears (T_T)! ] let us all welComE mY neWly tRanSformed prOtoN sAga. ( i da bwk merata even tak gi jpj lg ,renew road tax.. yaiks!)

.LOVE THEM , MAKE THEM HAPPY.

- DoNt CrY n sTaY stRonG -

p/s: baby, im so down down down!!...;(

4th mission: KeK cHocolaTe KuKus...yuMmY!

it may looks a bit horror k... but wait till u taste it urself.. yeah...;p (i skipped d topping part... thats y!. if this is the case then,next time i think i need toppings .LOL.)

special dedication for pia, cikin n zAlina...... with love;p

history: my aunt n i mmg ske cbe resipi baru especially cakes n deserts... die kate i pakar caramel n i kate die pakar buat cakes. huhuhu! so, die ade this recipe utk kek choc kukus yg sgt sdap.. she got it from her sister-in-law yg famous ngan popia making in sg.petani.yummy!

so as requested by pia love, below are the ingredients needed:-

ingredients:

1 cup of cocoa powder ( van houten )

1 cup of sugar

1 cup of evaporated milk

1 cup of corn cooking oil (mazola)

1/2 cup of condensed milk

1/4 cup of self-raising flour

2 cap of esen vanilla

how to make: (do it ur own way cuz i pn buat cara i sniri.. bantai je) huhuhu

1. + cocoa powder + sugar+ evaporated milk

+ corn cooking oil and condensed milk into a pan.

Panaskan n wait til smua bhn da sebati . n put off the flame.(mixture1)

2. then, break 3 eggs into another container. Beat them until it is frothy. Baru add in esen vanilla n self-raising flour. (mixture2)

3. Next, mix both mixture1 n mixture2 into a flat baking sheet.

4. Final step... steam it for 2 hours...(lame kn? haih).

5. It is ready to be served. yeah.... rasenya lg sdap if simpan dlu dlm

fridge n mkn sejuk2.

yummy!

p/s: girls... slamat mencuba.. for those yg x nak muak i suggest u guys cut down cocoa powder. too moisy nnti..;)

-FrieNds aRe ForEvEr? hmmm...;(-

-fRiEnDs for liFe-

hee.... frankly speakin' i xde ramai kwn. yang mane ade, yang itu sajalah n most of them are my highschool fellas.. surprisingly most of them r girlfriends...heart them for life ;)! i xpecaya kwn lelaki tu baik... for me kebanyakn derang r not true friends n x ikhlas berkwn... hemm...

i dnt believe in 'Friends are forevr' n so on bla bla...... bt mayb friendship nevr ends tu bley gak ditrima kot.... huhuuh cuz, i dont think dlm dunia ni there are friends that will be there for us 24 hours a day and whenever u need them... evry1 has their own things goin own in their lives.. the right phrase is 'Family are Forever'... x tau lah ramai yg stuju ngan i ke x but that works for me...

i mmg tak peramah mcm org lain yg duk sengih sane senyum sini manis mulut sane n all.. org mmg susah nk buat kwn ngn i n certain peolple kate i ni susah org nk dekat.. even mama pn kate ubah la perangai if not x de sape nk kawan ngan atin... hahahah sy gelak je but sometims protes gak perlu ke jadi org lain atau jd mcm org lain?.... xperlu kot!.... i am who i am...;) maybe mindset ni susah nk ubah, xnak trima org lain dlm idop n susah nk trima perubahan.... nk tunggu sampai org tu btol2 masuk dalam ati ni barulah i ngaku die kwn i... if not, they r just strangers yg i x mau tau pn ape berlaku dlm idop derang... bunyik cm selfish kn?! yup org nmpak mcmtu but the thing is people wont b able to hurt me in anyways... org bukan tau pn ape yg berlaku dlm idup ni n yg derang tau nk misjudge... owh... sgt pantang mak nenek i! huh.......

i kalo kwn sungguh2. berkorban jiwa raga neh... x berkira, n berusaha utk sesorg tnpa harapkn balasan eceh! stiap doa sy musti mereka ade hah.....hahhahah... itulah kwn kn... jd, mereka yg x sanggup n bukan tergolong dlm ciri2 ini maka ternyatalah derang bukan kwn kpd Nurfatin Mohd Ridzuan ini dan bukan juga kwn kpd org lain.... senangkn? yup... hidup lebih mudah begitu..... tp skali je sorg kwn sakit kn ati ni , stiap saat i igt n takkan lupe sampe bile2..

however, i thank god sbb i still have friends for life ;).. two bestfriends i might say..... n all my girlfriends yg kat highschool dlu....

* credits for them with love *

- Pia -

- Syiqin -

- Mira Danian -

- Yuni -

- Jean -

- Deeba -

- Edzuwyn Fathin -

- Zalina -

- Putet -

- Munie -

- Oya -

- Nad -

- owh ade la 3 kwn lelaki.... vi, alipma n arib -

rayer 2009

AIDILFITRI 2009

Dah 4 tahun tok(nenek blah mama)meninggal dunia. jd, stiap tahun rayer musti balik kg. Alor Star( nenek blah abah)...... this year rayer x meriah sgt coz mlm rayer Ridz's family je yg ade umah tokmak.. my uncles yg len semua x balik this year... heee, pagi rayer, pegi smayang rayer cam biase n balik solat ako sure pekena laksa tokmak(sbb tu je yg ako mkn stiap rayer smpe kembung) n org len pule menikmati hidangan raye( ketupat,rendang and all) dengan pelahapnye... heee...tak lame pn kat umah tokmak, after balik dr umah Tokndak trus kami balik sg.petani kampung halaman yg ako cintai... xde yg lg best dr beraya kt sini. even tok da xde now but the feelin is still there...sdey;'(.... on malam rayer ke3, mama gather semua adikberadik die makan same2... cikma masak semua dishes ok... sambal belcan yg sgt sdap owh.. heee mlm tu sonok da lame x berkumpul. well part x best i yg kne basuh pinggan sampe pagi hais....;)....

esok nye, pegi kubur tok dan sy nanges2 tringt arwah.... huuuuu;(.. then, gi umah toknjang kat permatang pauh n umah acu kat gong perahu.. huish mama suh acu msk nasi lemak kepakaran nye. mmg power heee... then, kitorag direct balik kl cuz abah nk antar i , syafiq n anwar ke campus masing2... x bestkn rayer skap je? hee.... xpe bg kisah ako, rayer ako di campus masih blum berakhir banyak gak gi open house rumah org... huhuhuhuhu

Kat campus, class bejalan seperti biase... heee but fikiran i masih kat makanan yg sdap n openhouse... kat upm, ako mane la ramai kawan... kwn2 yg ade semua kwn2 skolah menengah... coz merekalah yg terbaik!! yeah....

mula2 skali i gi umah jehan kan melawati (sabtu)... xpenah i umah die b4 seb pia ade kan. tupn sesat skit... heee jean masak spagethi... yum2. thanx jean... sgt sdap ok! berapa kali ntah tambah...*malu* tp nk wat camne jehan yg suh.... then gi umah deeba kt slayang hee... rmai kat umah diba time tu.... deeba*rinduuu*

2nd umah fanah kat shah alam(khamis mlm)... pekena laksa n nasi... heee berkenalan ngan kwn2 cikin ,dina n aya. kitorg sampe dlu then baru nana n edayu sampai.. heee.... derang kalo jumpe bingit satu rumah dn memang itulah yg terjadi kat sana. kalah makcik2 n pakcik2 kat luar duk sembang time tu haih... pia x join mlm tu cuz weekdays pia keje....;(

3rd adalah rumah cikin (sabtu ).... uish makan lg kan? i makn bihun sup.. owh sgt pedas n sgt sdap! heee sbb i letak cili kisap yg soto tu hais. sdap!..... i gi ngan cain... jumpe pia kat tol n gerak same2.. sampe2 je menjerit2 je kitorag sebb terkejut eija da sampe dlu... hahahha...

4th beraya ke rumah eija(sabtu berikutnye kalo x silap)... umah eija kt kajang.... hee terjumpa la pajero bapak nye yg same colour ngan pajero ku juge.... kat umah eija pn mkn banyak gak.. eija wat rendang ayam, sambal daging, laksa pn ade. ha.. tp xsmpat mkn laksa da kenyang bangat da.. kami pn beransur la bila kwn2 um eija da sampe ramai...

Perjalanan masih jauh nak gi umah pia plak slayang.... fuh seb cain ade die la driver ku.... sampe malam kami kat sane sbb tunggu nana n balak dia yg x sampai2. da pkul 10 bau sampe dengan satay dendaan oleh pia... huhuhu... tak lengkap sbb syqin n eija x dapt join that day. oleh sbb da malam sgt kami pun barulah reti nak balik.. hais kesian family pia kne masak rudhing sbb kami dtg x dirancang. ThanX auntie n uncle! heeee.....

begitulah berakhirnye bulan syawal ako yg paling best stakat ni! sbb i jumpe kwn2 skolah dlu yg best! mmg btol org kate kwn skolah tiada tandingan... derang la yg paling ikhlas n best!