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Sometimes. i feel like getting up n fight back. but every other time i just thought that my time is up n better give up. who am i questioning? am i not an ungrateful servant?

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tipulah kalo kata ako sikit pn x rasa bila tgk. tipu lah kalo ako kata x skit pn rasa teringin nk pegi. kat otak x terlepas fikir kalau la.. bestnyaaaa... sambil cr alternative lain... kalau lah itu kalau la ini.... tp kadang2 apa yang kita nak kita hanya mampu tgk je berlalu depan mata. skang mulut pandai da laju je kata no, xpela ade rezeki tu ade la nnti. pastu hati kecil siap kata... "boleh tahan Tabah jugakla kau ni, xsangka". bila duit bukan lg masalahnya, skang keadaan pula jadi issue. haih... nasib badan. Ya Allah, sungguh ako redha stiap takdir yg dah tertulis utk ku. ako bersyukur. Alhamdulillah utk ujian ini.

Sunday Morning:Hari Malaysia

my currnt fav: Plain water+lemon. mmg terbaik pegi tandas. serious. n just had porridge for lunch. tq iqa masakkan!nyums

Selamat Hari Malaysia Wahai Negaraku! eventhough sick gila cuti2 ni nk tgk tv tp semua channel patriotik tp sy bersyukur sy adalah Warganegara! apekah.

 

 

p/s: Spent the whole weekend cleaning up the house. perghhh laundry was the hardest! wuwuwuwu... nak washer machine now can?

Mr. Superhero.

with musyue the sombong cat. aum!

 

 

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mkn hati! ;(..... puih2. IGNORE!

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Sempat kah???? sempat kah?????? belajar pn x pnah rasa stress mcm niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! ;(


footnote: mati.;(

menyingkap 2011..)

2011 was.... "My Transition Year".  A little bit dull through out yet i am proud of it... no regrets...;).

I started last year with my internship. i vowed to spend more of my life on family matters. i vowed i'd stay close to them. which gladly i did.;)..... Alhamdulillah.

I ended degree studies early May and graduated last November. Alhamdulillah

Wishlist bagpacking Penang and Singapore accomplished. Alhamdulillah

Appointed for my 1st official job ;)....  n a few short contract jobs before that. Alhamdulillah for the rezki.

1st time bagi duit gaji bulan, bagi duit raya kat parents and lil siblings. walaupn x byk tp i felt contented until today. Alhamdulillah.

Decided to proceed with master walau hati ini berbelah bagi. YET.. I'm here!! Alhamdulillah segala ini untuk mama dan abah saya.

Overall, 2011 was full of  high expectations, self-thinking, sacrifice and independence. It brought me back to remember the very basic things of all. ALLAH.

Well 2012, act i already list down some new resolutions during Muharram... so i wudnt want to repeat it all over again here. till then,  im expecting something good this year. something i've awaited tp bukanlah lama sgt. hehehe . InshaAllah hanya dgn izin Allah.

plant physiologist-to-be,
Nurfatin Mohd Ridzuan

11/11/11

ramai org nikah arini... Tarikh cantik. Moga kebahagian yg diperoleh bakal sempurna.

kamu... selamat Bernikah. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan. Amin. dan Taniah.;)

footmte: pedih juga rasa

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he is a family man

he is arrogant at times selfish most of the time

he listens to his mom

he plans his life

he believes in his self

he takes simple things for granted

he changed

he has many girlfriends less boyfriends

he has more chinese friends

he loves badminton more than spending time talking

he reminds evry man u chelsea match

he is sometimes annoying

most of the time menyakitkan hati

he doesnt care

he improves hisself

i still love that man...for being just HIM. Well Love is Weird.

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Jangan Kau berkira-kira. Sesungghnya Janji Allah itu benar2 belaka. Doakanlah kebahagiaannya.;)

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da lama x rasa mcm ni. kadang2 confuse.;'(

footnote: thank u si cinta hati.

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mkn hati...;'(... sampainya hati...... xpelah. ako x berkira.

on life

Forgive my absence dear along the line. I’ve been focusing on my task so bad that I had neglected u I know. Plus I have this thing going on in my life which is very much complicated to explain but Alhamdulillah the burden had lighted a bit now. Thank u Allah for your guidance.

On growing up, you face so many confusing pathways along the way. U wanted to decide but something else pulls u back. U r terrified, theres also hope, desire, how u love being u, parents. Till u reach one point where u wont want to fight anymore. Berserahlah pada qada dan qadar, pd takdir Allah. Allah penentu segalanya. Mmg benar kita merancang. Tapi x semua yg kau rancang akan berlaku (So YunA..lol)..

Hidup kita kadang2 terlalu focus. Anak yg baik mendengar kata lah kata org. Kadang2 terfikir menyesal juga pilih jalan ni. Lain yg ibu bapa mahukan lain pula yg dicari. Itu yang mereka mahu mcmana pula dgn apa yg kita mahu?… sdeh bila kenang hati si ibu musti x gembira ako pilih jalan ini. Ketahuilah Hati ini sdeh jugaaaaaa…;’(…. Tp ako yakin isthikarah haritu yg bawa ako kesini. Pasti ada sebab psti ada tujuan. Tp ako janji ako akan tunai ape yg mama mahukan nnti. Mungkin tahun depan mungkin tahun akan datang. Waktu tu belum pasti lg. sebelum mata mereka belum tertutup ako akan berusaha yg satu itu.

Antara belajar dan bekerja. Kau tanyalah hati kau, kau tanya org tua kau. Apa mereka mahu dan apa yg kau mahu. Tp kalo ako punya kekuatan, tentu ako pilih apa yang ibu bapa ku mahu. Andai ako punya kudrat itu kesempatan itu, ako langsaikan yg itu dlu. Sebb mereka belum tentu lama. Kita kesuntukkan masa sebenarnya. Pilihlah belajar! Kalau itu yang ibu bapa kau mahu! Kau pasti takkan menyesal. Mereka tahu apa yg baik untuk mu.

lately.

kadang2.. kau juga perlu kuat utk org lain.

p/s: jgn kau hina dia.. lihat saja cara kau, lihat saja kata2 kau, lihat saja lagak kau... kau ape kurang?? kau lelaki tu, kau jgn sombong sgt. tiba masa kau tahu langit tinggi rendah. yg ako pasti, dia jauh lebih baik dr kau. jauh lebih baik!

true/false

"its better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what your not"
— Marilyn Monroe

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need a break. need to go far.

si simcard

just so u know...., i am a loyal maxis user for almost 8 years n now, proudly to announce that 012-9111416 is no longer active. stop trying to reach my number or else maxis mailbox will be happy enough to deduct 30 cent from ur account lol. For those who have important/urgent matter do contact my family members. i might not be registering a new number for the time being so.. girlfriends who r dear to me, u guys know exactly where to find me.;))....

footnote: its about time. love is letting go. -so true- u r right. i sincerely love u. Lillahi ta'ala.

footnote 2: Blog muslimah

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kau cabar hati ako. baik..ako akan jadi lebih baik tanpa kau. ako akan buktikan.

lama2.

Bila satu pagi kau bgn, ko x rase nk buat apa2,
Bila slalu mama kau asik cita psl kenduri kawin,
Bila satu hari mak kau tanya boleh tak dia carikan bakal suami kau,
bila hari esok pn duk tanya benda yg sama,
Bila tiba-tiba mama kau dtg duduk kat katil kata tak payah tunggu dia lagi,
dia ulang jangan lg tunggu dia yang lama,
bila adik perempuan ko asik intai handfone kau nk tgk msg dgn siapa,
bila adik perempuan kau report kat mama kau yg kau nangis dlm solat,
Bila abah kau pulak buat x kasi kau cari keja yang pelik2,
bila abah kau tak abes2 suh ko lepak2 dlu and sabar...

Sumpah weh... sumpah kau rasa nak lari rumah!!!!!

kisah tentang bulan.

currently in JB (that explains y i didnt update for.... i dont know how many days now. hehehe). u can run from problems (but they wont solved). yet u cant run from Allah's fates becuz HE had all of them well planned. the person was not who u think he was... n even if it wass him...i wud have acted the same..i'll be just fine. ;)) (cehh probably i'll be crying 3 days 2 nights at insyira's place)...... no lah im kiddin.. no wait i was not. kahkahkah... so anyway i pray for ur hapiness. ;).. may u lead a happy life ahead n have wonderful children. i dont know whether i cud make it to ur akad i wish i am THAT strong.;'(