an advance apology

dear Mr. S,

tonight i feel like writing to u i just dont know y.....

*silence*

looking back on us, i actly have so much to thank u for..... hence am not gonna do the long THANK U list like i used to, this time its probably a longggg Sorry List!!;p..

SORRY.... i have never been the one who understands u especially on ur late night on calls, ur tonnes of paperwork. i got grumpy n end up sulking to sleep.n u felt guilty.

SORRY..... i was never the best GF for u. not on arranging surprises not on happy moments. not on supporting badminton matches.tho, im trying my best now to be a better fiancé for u.

SORRY... i am selfish all the time. i knew i was wrong each time i commit yet never admits. still u forgave me.

SORRY... for being the one who never listens n "big-talks" all the time just to make me feel that i am better than u. whilst u know im not. i am nothing w/o u. the fact is, i listened to every single word u said i kept them close to my heart. i remember.

SORRY... i made fun of u by calling u pondan  mcm budak pomp. sometimes paksa nak pkaikan u lip ice sheer colour depan org. ajak masuk kedai lingerie org sebelah dok tgk.cucuk perut boncit pastu sy gelak kuat2. i am sorryyyyy awak musti maluuuu =.=

SORRY... i bullied u. i started ur car asked u to not enter, drove off made a u-turn then came pick u up near the end road. still u smiled n u tot that was funny.

SORRY.... i scolded u. sometimes i even mencarut in front of u n u hated me doing that. still.. u never shows u r mad at me.

SORRY... i made it hard for u. when u came home late i refused to answer the phone. text-ed macho message just to make u feel bad. yet before going to bed i insisted to skype. i saw ur face. exhausted n i feel bad for acting such selfish.

p/s: ok tetiba mood da hilang. to be continued